Fragmented Brain Matter

“Money doesn’t change men, It merely unmasks them. If a Man is naturally selfish or greedy, the Money brings that out, that’s all.” – Henry Ford

These days I’ve been experiencing life as opposed to just living it. To be honest a lot of it is unpleasant.
Actually, that’s not true, It’s not life that’s unpleasant its some of the people that i bump into that make it seem like that. Life by itself is very beautiful.

This is a personal rant and might be boring and will be very very very non-specific because i know that the person towards whom this post is directed is never going to read it. The person assumes that they are beyond such things and have better things to do in life.

I really don’t have any objections to how somebody wants to live their life. Though I’d love to not be judgemental, But I’d be lying if i said that I am not.

There’s this person, “person” because i will definitely puke if i associate the word friend with that entity, who I’ve known for a while. I’ve had the opportunity of knowing this person and through this association i have also known how their life has panned out in the last few years. I have also seen the transformation and Today was a revelation to the extent of that transformation. The transformation hasn’t just been in terms of greed but in overall demeanor. From a normal person to somebody who is arrogant and stuck up, somebody totally full of themselves and so money minded that i can see “$” in their eyes even without trying.
I don’t have a problem with a miser, a miser looks to save his own money by scrounging on something and denying himself that thing.

But i positively despise a leech. A leech is a parasite who feeds off others. Yes, thats a brilliant way to describe this person. A Slimy Leech.

To be honest it would be an insult for the leech to relate this person to a leech. I can safely say that i haven’t seen such a specimen ever before in my life and i hope to god that i don’t ever come across one again.

The only sad thing is that till now i used to live my life thinking that people are inherently honest, truthful and have integrity and morals. This one person will change that outlook for a while to come and will make me wary in general. I’ve tried to convince myself that it really isn’t necessary to generalise because of one person. But that will probably take a while to sink in.

To end with, the Mahatma again got it right,

“There is enough in the world for every man’s need, but not every man’s greed.”

Where do you turn to for Inspiration? … Inside You? … Outside?

What if, at times … it just doesn’t seem to be worth the search?

What if in the echoing silence all around there are screams of chaos? What when, the silence is more deafening than the screams?

We fall, stumble, get up and dust ourselves and march on with heads held high … for how long? Sometimes the march itself is aimless. What happens when you are moving in circles?

What happens when axioms remain just that … axioms, but are eventually no closer to the truth than truth itself. What happens when the hollowness is all ensuing and omnipresent.

What happens when reflections are empty and all you see is the void. What if the presence of the void is scarier than the void itself?

What happens when things that matter run through their shelf life?

What happens when the questions just remain questions and the answer, even though present, isn’t an answer?

What happens when all you see in the void are vestigial fragments of a once delirious vision, floating in the murky waters of a fragmented conscious?

Sometimes … It takes so much more to sit and watch the world go by.

With Due Credits to Bill Watterson and His Magnificent Creation: Calvin and Hobbes

Interacting with people is a very strange thing. With a little over 6 and a half billion people in the world you are bound to find disparities in how people are.

But then you come across incidents that reaffirm your faith in humanity and then again something happens that completely shatters your belief in the same quality.

I guess its also relative to the context you are looking from and how you see people. Its all relative to what you want out of the interaction and do you get it or not. If yes then its great and if not then its crap.

The only thing i can deduce or learn is that there’s a lot of jerk’s out there and there’s decent people out there each of us has our share of the freaks we are going to bump into. As long as we stop judging people frequently and stereotyping them we should be fine.
Its all about limiting expectations.

But then again how can we not have an opinion. Isn’t it the easy way out – Get what you need/want and then move on without pondering too much about the specifics – Isn’t that a very selfish (for lack of a better word) way to pass through life?

Oh dear … One of those early morning philosophical outbursts … pardon me for the grief